Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 69

Good Mornin' Tuesday!

Yea, I guess I just have to count the days that we continue this life as good ones even with hardship....

I got a ride home from someone I didn't even think would associate with anyone else in the rest of the building. They do have interaction with more of the people than I do but as the cafeteria operators..

We discussed my situation which really is not that big a problem for me, but if most of the other people at work had to deal with this adversity, they would be in a lot rougher shape.

I have been through similar problems before and I always manage to get through it...

When in Winnipeg, we had one son and were living my Ford Maverick because the walls in the basement of the house we were renting had collapsed the house was condemned. We did not have the funds to move or even store our things so we, essentially moved into the car.

Adversity does teach.....

hhmmm....

Thoughts

btw, my halogen desklamp bulb just went too...

Monday, February 27, 2006

Graffitti Monday... 21

HAPPY (COLD) GRAFFITTI MONDAY!!!





Thoughts

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Thanks...

I really appreciated the comment from you Hale, you don't know how much.

I turned 49 last week and I seem to be in a bit of a funk and a mood to say that I have had enough of the life of subsistence I have been living to this date.

Per the previous post, I could come up with the extra $50 bucks but the principal prevents me from making said arrangements. I will be writing to my Minister of Parliament and anyone else who will listen.

For now, I have a small space heater at my feet, I run the clothes dryer as needed(it is in the kitchen), open the stove while on and the ceiling fan on low to keep it circulating and my waterbed has a heater so I think we'll make it, just not as comfortable as it should have been.

I will also be touching on the same kind of bullshit when dealing with the electricity company.

I am in the process of writing an email to all of the important and not so important people in the company that I work for as well. This one has been brewing since my discipline for my blogging last year. Yes, I did write about the jokers I have to deal with there but at no time was there a name put to anyone in the building, no company name, no client names and just for the record, my name and personal information were also left out but because one of the little, self righteous, self-serving, assholes that knew it was my blog, shared with the management, they essentially wrote me up as being unprofessional. At this point the only people that are acting unprofessional are the two people that I despise most in the company. The discipline and degradation has continued for the full year and I will be taking them to task on it. Wish me luck but I may wind up unemployed...

One other letter that will be written will be to the corporation that my 19 year old daughter works for. One of their female employees in another city was raped and killed after she left work which was well after dark and hours that men should have been scheduled for.

They have told my daughter that they really want to keep her because of her work ethic and dependability. They have cut her to 20 hours a week or less and give the closing shifts. This is how you reward the people you value most?

Anyway, I really need to find a way to help these people and to stop others from their fat-headed, self-centered, selfserving, self-righteous ways....

If anyone has any ideas, please comment....

I am at a point were I truly believe my lent in life is to be screwed by as many people as possible, as many times as possible and for as long as possible and the one more for good measure...

Hope everyone else has had a good weekend....

Thoughts

Saturday, February 25, 2006

Bullshit!

We ran out of heating oil last night and yea, it is a little cool in the house this morning.

The pay I got yesterday was to go to paying my rent so I have really should not be using it for anything else.

I call the oil company I have been getting oil from and I'm told that a minimum order is $250 with a $50 delivery charge.

OK, I shouldn't but I will ask the landlord to wait til my next pay for the rent. The guy who is on call, calls me and tells me that she answering service was wrong and that the minimum is $300 and $50 for delivery.

I can push it for the $300 total but not the extra $50, too bad, so sad.....WTF!

I call another company, I will have to wait till business hours Monday..... WTF!

I call a third company, they will deliver about 10 gallon but it will cost $105 plus whatever the going rate for the oil is..... WTF!

I will be going to my MP and the media, this is so wrong....

Thoughts

Friday, February 24, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 68

Well, as indicated yesterday, I started down a certain path...

Today, I should be receiving a copy of everything that is in my shadow file, this is a file that is kept out of HR where the team managers can access and keep record of everything you that is and is not HR related.

I will be requesting a copy of all of my HR files as well today.

I will then be visiting with a particular person in HR who attempted to brush me off Wednesday, with my manager...

All I can ask is wish me luck....

hhmmm.....

Thoughts

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 67

Today I start on my path to what will probably end up being my termination from the company for which I work.

We have come to a point where we have to bid for our shifts and I have been moved so far down the list, I am going to get a really crappy one.

If this results in my termination, I will be ranting on this blog and be putting a crap load more on a couple of others that I have been neglecting of late.

Stay tuned for updates.

That is it for today.

Thoughts

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Interesting Link...

http://www.j-marimba.com/ponies210.htm

I thought this was really quite entertaining.

The music may not be to your liking but if you have kids, you may find it a little interesting.

My son, who is soon to be seventeen, called me, I forget the exact wording but, something to the effect of geeky, for watching it.

At first I thought so too but then I thought about what these kids possibly went through to get to this point. Some of them may have been pretty much hounded or even abused into doing this and may even not have wanted to get into this but they are really good.

Anyway, enjoy the link...

Thoughts

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 66

Here we have gone through another year and the people in the company are getting their reviews and any possible raises based on performance.

I guess the company is doing so poorly, they have not got the resources to do anything but cap different positions.

I was well above the cap for my position before the cap was brought in.

This essentially tells the people being reviewed that "Damn fine job! Keep it up and by the way, we aren't giving you any more money."

I have been with this company for more than five and a half years and on my fifth anniversary I was rewarded with a t-shirt with the company logo on it. In essence, "Thanks for being so loyal and productive for the company and here is your shirt, go advertise for us!" WTF?

Anyway, that is a sore spot that will take more twists and turns as time goes on. I am a letter writer, so far as to get myself disciplined and possibly, this time, fired.

It might help my overall health and well being in one way.

The other item I want to visit this morning is the fucking bitch that hooked up with my oldest son.

Yea, yea, I know, a lot of people will look at this as just an old man losing his family, "empty nest syndrome" but they would be wrong.

I did not like the woman, and I use that term loosely, as she started giving it up for Jr. before she was actually separated from her husband. She is still married to him and to be messing around with anyone is wrong in my book. Old fashioned? I don't think so but....

She has claimed less than propriety when she got pregnant by another man so many years ago, not her husband or my son, which resulted in a son for her.

Now, when my son moved in with her, I wasn't happy about it but let both know that I accepted the situation as I raised my son to be a free thinker and believed her knew right from wrong.

She then proceeded to separate him from the rest of the world. She claimed an issue arose with the father of her son and had to get away.

With that, she decided to move to Nova Scotia and took Jr. with her. No biggy...

I found out later that Jr. was not even allowed the opportunity to tell his friends or to even say goodbye. None of them knew where or when he had left.

Next came the separation from his own family.

I spoke two less than complimentary words which she heard over the phone and made it known to Jr. that I had destroyed her whole life. I have been banned from their house,, she seems to be afraid that I would explode in front of her kid.

His mother and sister made it known that what he was doing to me was wrong and he hung up on them as well.

The last straw, as it were, was the fact that he has decided that he will no longer talk to anyone in the family for any reason including his Grandmother and uncle.

There was at one point, a claim that the two of them discussed Jr. entering the armed forces because of the income and security. I truly believe it was all a one sided decision by her.

I would really like to find a way and the funds to take a trip to their place and try to straighten Jr. out on just what the "fucking bitch " has done and is continuing to do.

I know I will never do that and would never make him decide between me and anyone else but, if I had been in their house the night I heard that she had banned me from their house, I would probably slapped her off her feet.

I can only hope that he wakes up somewhere along the way, come to his senses and clear out. I don't care if he finds someone else or comes back to this area or anything her wants to do but he is going to have to get away from that bitch.

Sorry for the rant but this has been boiling in me since December 29th. I want to write a letter but every time I do, I know what I am putting down will be misconstrued.

Anyway, this does help a little. I'm try to keep all up on the progress...

Have a great Tuesday....

hhmmm....

Thoughts

Monday, February 20, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 65

HAPPY GRAFFITI MONDAY!


I find it harder than heck to go back to work after 4 days off in a row.

Seems like a lot longer than that, and I really do not want to go back...

I will have to check everything that I set for this week and see what new crap I may have lined up for me...

I wonder just how many of the damnable customers from far too long ago, are going to call in for me this week...

I also heard through the grapevine that we have a shiftbid this week as well...

I also am still waiting for my annual review, I don't think my team manager has the #$% to tell me without some sort of assistance to be sure I don't rip him apart.

I know that the remuneration for my position has been capped but that still doesn't make it any more palatable...

How many jobs do you know of where you have been a loyal and productive employee for over five years and get nothing but a pat on the back and told to keep up the good work but we are not paying you anymore?

Anyway, another week, more pain and suffering, more frustration and a crap load more "NO"'s from me...

Have a great week!

Thoughts

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 64

Well, here we are on a Sunday thinking about that Monday morning again.

The longer away, the harder to go back...

I'm wondering if my oil is going to last through the cold spell we find ourselves in the midst of now....

I'm wondering if my oldest son will ever talk to me or any of his family again...

I wonder if my poor old dog is going to make it to summer...

I have a bit of wondering to do, so, if you'll pardon me, I'm going to bed and hopefully the wondering will wait till tomorrow...

hhmmm....

Thoughts

Saturday, February 18, 2006

I don't believe it...

I am actually running out of stuff to post...

I wonder if this is something like writers block?

I spent pretty much my whole day yesterday cleaning around the damn house.

You really don't know what kind of a slob you live with til they are out of your way and you get to cleaning up...

My youngest son is an absolute pig....

Last summer, he accidently broke the glass in one of his bedroom windows and we just do not have the bread to get it replaced so, we duct taped a big piece of cardboard over it, then plastic and lastly, a blanket.

Yesterdays wind was so strong, it blew the cardboard right out of the window.

I had a piece of 1/4" plywood that I got for the bathroom floor and nailed it over it. It isn't too bad with a little more duct tape but I guess I gotta get something dome about it this year...

Anyway, lets see if we can get through this winter in one piece first

Thoughts

Friday, February 17, 2006

Thursday, February 16, 2006

YAY!

One more year before that dreaded "50".....

Looking at the number provides more dread than saying ever did....

I look back and think, "What the fuck have I accomplished?"

The only great thing I can think of are my three kids.

If I had it all to do over, I would seriously think about a lot of it being different and would hope it would start out a whole lot different than it did....

As I look ahead, I think about what I really wanted and it seems I have lowered my expectation quite a bit.

It feels like time is running out for some of the stuff I wanted to do and I can only hope that there will be some help from the offspring for completion of the tasks I need to do to have my life complete.

I want to buy a highway tractor, preferably Peterbilt, with a trailer that I have modified the way I want so that I can actually move in. It will have to have room for my pickup, boat and bike near the back.

I want a Harley, Indian or customer built bike.

I want a bass boat for fishing.

And I want to be able to stop working and travel from one body of water to the next, fishing each and every one from one end of this continent to the other.

It would be a great retirement...

I wonder how much of it will really be possible?


Thoughts

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Humpday for some...

This is the middle of the week for some but this week it is my Friday..... two whole days off of work... yay!

As of tomorrow, I a can claim to be one year older too.

Funny but my twin brother will be able to make that claim five minutes before me.

That is the one day of the year that you will never, ever find me at work.

There are no celebrations other than my kids and the ex-wife giving presents and then leaving me alone which suits me just fine.

I'm not sure just what I'll do but nothing that would be considered work except maybe a little cleanup around my house.

I booked off Friday too because what is the use in having Thursday off and going back for one day before the weekend. Makes for a good long weekend.

Anyway, gotta get in there and finish up that work week.

Have a great week peeps....

Thoughts

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Sweet!



HAPPY

VALENTINES

DAY!!




Get the message?

Thoughts

Monday, February 13, 2006

Graffitti Monday... 20

Happy Graffitti Monday!




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Sunday, February 12, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 62

First a few questions and then the related experience.

What effect would you think death would have on the life of you as a kid?

What would be your first reaction seeing a person die unexpectedly before your eyes?

This would not be a relative or friend just someone you met for the first time on the day they died?

What if the action that led to this persons death was directly related to the interaction between you and that person?

Would it turn you into a lazy person?

Would it make you a stupid person?

Would you be considered stupid if you showed no reaction at all?

Now, I will relate it for you...

I went to a one-room school house for the first two years that I was in school.

Each grade was separate grade.

I was in grade two at this school and about three quarters of the way through the year, our regular teacher found herself unable to come to school due to the flu.

The people who make the decisions, had to get a substitute teacher in place fairly quickly, which they did.

The substitute was about as far from being a pretty woman as I could imagine anyone getting.

The first thing that she wanted to do was to get everyone's names from them.

When it came to my turn, I was so dumbstruck, I did not answer.

Her reaction, which seemed a little in the realm of overkill, was to strap me right there in front of the rest of the class.

She then went to her chair at the front of the room and sat down where she turned some strange colors and fell over backwards with the chair.

I later learned that she was dead before she hit the floor.

My parents took us to the cottage that Thursday and I had just thought it had been a long weekend.

I really can't say when I learned that she had died but, pretty much from that point in time, my whole life went into the dumper.

This is a true story in my early life. Do not feel sorry for me, pity me or anything else. It is merely a little insight into me.

hhmmm....

Thoughts

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 61

Thank God for weekends...

If it wasn't for these little breaks, I would completely lose all sanity..

So am I really sane?

What defines sanity?

Are there different levels of sanity? Insanity?

Maybe I am the most insane person and everybody else is "normal"?

If that is the case, I really want to be insane....

Guess I'm going monitor shopping this weekend, even though I can't really afford it....

Guess I'm going for a short tonight, have great day peeps...

hhmmm....

Thoughts

Friday, February 10, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 60

You would not believe this shit....

On Monday morning, my tub drain had gotten really, really slow. When finished having a shower, we have time to dry off and get completely dressed and ready for work before leaving the bathroom before it drains completely.

I figured that I would see if I could unblock the pipes in the basement. Turns out that I cannot get the plug out of the trap but , no problem, I disconnect the pipe from the trap which works out as the blockage is just past the trap anyway.

I don't have a drain snake so I straighten out a coathanger to push the clog out.

The problem with this experiment is that the 2" galvanized pipe is about 6' long and, well, you know how long the coat hanger is....

I managed to push the clog further down the pipe but it seems that it got tighter. Now we have to bail the damn tub out after a shower so that the other of us can take one too.

Yea, I know, there are products for this but being between pays did not afford me the funds to buy any of those. I'll have it fixed in the by Saturday.

Anyway, I came home last night to see my 19" Samsung monitor with a very bright line right across the middle and the rest is black. Damn, figgin monitor is screwed too....

I over heard the kid talking to his Mother yesterday and found that he needed money for some books and supplies at school too.

Will this bloody hell never end...

I am probably going to jinx myself here but "WHAT THE FUCK CAN HAPPEN NEXT?"

At least it is Friday......

hhmmm....

Thoughts

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Please leave

Please leave

Dear XXXXX,

If you do not like my country, please leave.
If you do not like the way our women dress, please leave.
If you do not like our separation of politics and religion, please leave.
If you support violent responses to criticism of religion, please leave.
If you support terrorism in any way, shape or form, please leave.
If you cannot accept satirical cartoons in our newspapers, please leave.
If you do not support democracy or the freedom of speech, please leave my country.


This was directed at a certain peoples but I think it is fitting for all...

Thoughts

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 59

Here is a site for a good cause in our area.

http://www.romeoandjuliet.ca/ladies_vote_for_your_top_10_men.htm

Take a really good look at number "4".

That is the picture of a convicted sex offender!

He likes to molest young teen-aged girls.

He has, as of this posting, been pulled from the contest but his picture will remain on the site for identification purposes.

This guy has an 18 year criminal history.

Being on the sex offender registry does not entitle anyone other than the police, access to the information that he is a sex offender.

What the hell good is the registry?

How does a "GOOF" like this get to roam free and enter these contests?

The contest management was devastated at the news first thing this morning.

Above all, go and look at this guy, see what he looks like, don't forget it and pass it on...

hhmmm....

Thoughts

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 58

What do think this is?




Pehaps a huge ass pillow?


Maybe a giant chicklet?


A big ol' boil?


A zit on the ass of the world?

All good answers but no, it's actually an inflatable building for raquet ball and tennis...

I wonder what kind of protection they have against someone tripping and tearing it from the inside?

Imagine someone actually putting a tear in the one end and it flying off like a balloon that slips when you are trying to blow it up...

hhmmm....

T
houghts

Monday, February 06, 2006

Graffitti Monday... 19

HAPPY GRAFFITTI MONDAY!!




Thoughts

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 57

Apparently I have been mistaken.

I thought I was doing something here with this blog but I guess I was really quite wrong.

I had an idea that I had joined an anonymous on-line world but it seems that, after over a year of blogging, I am the only one and maybe two or three others, that think what I have to say here is of any value.

There are several blogs that I have watched and I don't mean occasionally, I mean every single day.

I visit these blogs almost every single day. I actually post on this one every single day without fail.

I don't know, maybe I was expecting too much from this thing. I had a couple of other ones and in fact, I have been screwed at work because a person I thought of as a friend decided that he had to pass it along to certain other parties at work.

I have pretty much been, if you'll pardon the expression, "fucked" for my blog writing. Yea, it was almost a year ago that that particular incident happened but no one really gave a shit...

I grabbed a few of the me-me's from some of the blogs I visit on a regular basis but apparently that is only good for the ones that I borrowed from.

I thought I would join that great posting fest called "HNT" Guess what?, fucked again.

The lead guy on that one has his regular peeps and anyone new, you are on yer own. I did note that he had some concern this past week about some of the ones that quit the HNT but I guess once again, I am the odd man out.

Sure I am a loner, sure I hate people, but there is a little something even in me that needs some sort of connection.

I have been separated for almost five years. My oldest son hooked up with an ignorant fucking bitch that has not only separated him from all of his friends without notice but has now succeeded in breaking him completely away from his family.

My daughter lives with her mother and that is only because she can't get along with her younger brother who lives with me.

Now my youngest son is one of the biggest slobs in the fucking world. I used to try to keep the place in a semblance of a clean and tidy home but with no help from him and in fact, a hindrance, I have given up on that too.

I can't seem to keep up on the bills I have just to survive, never mind getting ahead.

I also look at my age and wonder if I will ever be able to do the last couple of things I want to before I die.

Maybe I am just in the dumper tonight but, man, I would just like to tell the whole world to go fuck itself and do what I want.

Jeez, I think I wore myself out on that one.

Just take the posting as a man who is getting tired.....

That is it for now....

hhmmm....

Thoughts

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Things that make you go hhmm.... 56

Gotta like the weekend...

Looks like we are in for winter storm, not what I would look forward to right now.

It really sucks not having the money to even get a coffee each day...

I have to cough up the green for the hydro bill, $350 this week coming and another $350 four weeks later...

Got a bill that I thought was mine. Named my oldest son the same as me except for the middle initial and I would really like to know where the hell my mind was when I did that....

And what is up with kids these days. My oldest son in 6' 4" tall and weighs in at about 225 lb. The "little guy", at almost 17 years old is 6' 5" tall and about 180. The middle one is all of 5' 4" and no more than 110 soaking wet. I can't figure out for the life of me what happened here. I am about 5' 10" and the ol' lady is about 5' 2". That could explain the middle one but what happened with the other two?

Could it be something in the food these days?

Anyway, another short one...

hhmmm....

Thoughts

Friday, February 03, 2006

TGIF!

Here we are, another week gone.

Looks like we are to have an end to "winter" soon. Haven't really had much that we could call winter but seems we will be have some white shit after a crap load of rain over the next couple of days.

Just which of the groundhogs are you supposed to believe?

All of the Canadian ones did not see their shadows but pretty much all of the US ones did. Can the winter end be split?

Going to be interesting to find out which one was right....

Have great day

Thoughts

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Happy HNT!!!!!!!

I'm going to continue to wish others a happy HNT but have decided that it is no longer for me.


HAPPY HNT!!!

HAPPY HNT!!!

HAPPY HNT!!!

HAPPY HNT!!!



Thoughts

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Another Humpday....

Here we are, almost half way through another week.

I am running out of steam and subjects for posting here, I don't want to start sounding like a broken record or a dirty DVD....

I had a plant that was given to me to keep at my desk at work back in the spring of 2001.

I just kept watering it and nothing else but it grew like a weed.

The last pot I had it in was a 12 inch clay one and it was actually getting root bound. Last spring, I decided to take it home, split it up and take a part of it back to work.

When I dumped it out of the pot, there wasn't a handful of dirt. It was as if it ate all of the dirt and nothing was left but roots.

I split it into 4 separate pots which worked out to about 2 to 3 actual plants per pot.

The three I kept at home, just gradually died off. The other one, I took to work and allowed someone else to have and keep on their desk.

It was doing great for a while but was returned to my desk about 2 weeks ago and looks in really bad shape.

I guess they did not know that when the leaves would droop, the thing just needed water. They added food spikes and God knows what...

This plant was so well known in the building that when I took it home, people I did not even know were asking where the plant went.

Now I'm getting crap from people who see the condition it is in and think I did it....

I keep just pouring water through it everyday as I did in the beginning and am hoping for the best but I have a feeling it isn't going to survive.

If this last piece dies, I have a feeling that it will be indicative of my life with the company. It may be getting close to the end of my "career with them and it may be a good thing.

As a side note, I had an Aloe plant at home that had "leaves" that were more than 18 inches long. When I brought the plant home from work and set it beside the Aloe, the Aloe just up and died in about three days. If I had just poured gas on it, it could not have been faster.

Can plants get jealous?

BTW, it was a "Peace Lily", a fitting plant for the type of work we do.

I think I will go looking for another one and maybe keep the job, although I don't know why.....

Anyway, have a great day!

Thoughts.